After graduating from University with a Commerce and PHYS ED degree, Anne and I got married, went to Bible School and then moved to Winnipeg to be with my brother and the church in Winnipeg. I worked in business as an Account Executive, but had always wanted to teach. So, after a few years I resigned my position and went back to university to get an Education degree. This marked the beginning of a very profound period in my life.
It was during this time I had a vision.
I saw myself hiking up a mountain wearing a great big backpack. I came to a fork in the path, at the fork stood Jesus. He stood at the fork in the path holding a climbing rope and a climbing axe. He held them out and said, "Give me your backpack, all you need are these."
My first thought was, "I can't give you my backpack. Everything I need for this trip is in there."
The vision ended.
As I began to unpack the vision the Lord helped me to understand what He was saying. The rope represented the Word of God. The axe represented the Holy Spirit. The back pack represented all the things that I believed I needed to accomplish during my life in order to be considered "successful".
What did I think I needed to accomplish in order to be a success?
A beautiful house in a beautiful neighborhood. Nice vehicles. A boat. Meaningful work. A good income. Enough money to give away a bunch. Cool family holidays. World mission travel. A good reputation, favour and influence in the community.
The Lord was asking me to lay all of these hopes and dreams down, walk with Him, and rely on His Word and the Holy Spirit. It took me two years to come to the point of surrender. We were raising a family on one very small income, and none of my hopes and dreams seemed remotely possible. Jesus had to be enough.
The vision was clearly an invitation to surrender my life fully to Jesus. I thought I had done that decades earlier. I certainly had given my life to Christ years before, but now I was being invited to really surrender everything to Him. I had to decide whether or not He was enough. Was I willing to trust Him with my life? Was I willing to build my life on God's Truth - His Word - to receive my life from the Holy Spirit?
Or was I going to try to do life on my terms? Was it God's will my way, or God's will God's way? Could I trust Him with all my hopes and dreams?
I believe this "fork in the path" is one that each of us must come to. Will we trust Him with everything? Is Jesus enough?
The answer of course is "yes" - Jesus is enough.
So, what's in your backpack? Will you give it to Jesus? Is Jesus enough for you?
"But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ"