Hair has always been an issue for Moira. However, one day in particular gave her pause to consider why in the world she would have a hairy conniption over almost every haircut.
Typical of the times, Moira's mom usually did the haircutting. She recounts a "bowl cut" in particular. As a young girl, she missed the long hair and desperately wanted a ponytail, but mom said her neck was too short and her hair was too thin.
Of course, as soon as the choice was hers to make, Moira let her hair grow long. After all, it was scriptural:
"And isn't long hair a woman's pride and joy?" (1 Corinthians 11:15).
Even after 25 years of marriage, her husband will tell you he prays when Moira goes to the hairdresser. It's not unusual for her to rant aloud for several days afterward if scissors have robbed her of too much hair, or have taken a direction other than what she had requested.
One day she was on my way to see a friend who was battling breast cancer. That very morning, Moira's friend, Kathy, had surrendered what was left of her hair after chemo treatments to a friend's trimmer. This loss, for many women, cuts the deepest. Moira was embarrassed to admit that on her way to Kathy's home she was obsessing about a fresh haircut.
Moira turned to God about it. "Lord, why is it so upsetting to me when a hairstylist doesn't do what I ask them to do?"
In that moment the Spirit of Truth showed her that the loss of her childhood desire was more than an unmet longing. She had experienced her mother's scissors as an assault weapon and a thief. The wound of a cheated preschooler had never healed.
We are complex creatures with hearts that harbour toxic stuff and lie to us:
"The heart is more deceitful than all else and is desperately sick; Who can understand it?" (Jeremiah 17:9 NASB).
Thankfully, "…God is greater than our hearts, and He knows everything" (1 John 3:20).
"You spread out our sins before you - our secret sins - and you see them all" (Psalm 90:8).
The path to healing and freedom was relinquishment. Revelation led to release!
Moira's comparatively trivial hair issue taught her profound truths.
If a simple matter like a haircut was all-consuming and drained her of every drop of joy and peace, what about the pain of life-altering betrayals that cut deep. To compound the devastation, the enemy of our soul wins twice when we hold the offence in our hearts.
Is something robbing you of "the abundant life" Jesus promised, why not follow David's example and pray:
"Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life" (Psalm 139:23,24).