Have you ever thought about "what could have been"? When you
can't sleep or are on a long trip and have nothing but time, have you ever
wondered what would've happened, "if only..."? Applying that question to our lives
could be dangerous for us, dredging up unnecessary regret. Applying that question to the life of someone
else just might be healthy for us, prompting us to search out the hidden life-lesson. As I was reading a familiar story in the
Bible the other day, that's what I found myself doing.
The disciple Matthew is in the middle of recounting the last
night in the life of Jesus. Three years
of friendship had culminated into one final meal, the "Last Supper", and then
life for Jesus and His disciples drastically changed. In just a few short hours, they had gone from
a mission statement of all for one,
to a bleak reality of One for all.
And it was only the beginning. Jesus had been arrested and His disciples had
disappeared to parts unknown. And it all started with one single kiss. The kiss
of betrayal. And we know that this disloyalty came from none other than one of
His own, Judas Iscariot.
Over the years, there has been much speculation over the
true motives of this mislead man. Did he go to the enemies of Jesus out of
blind hatred or calculated manipulation? Was he hoping for Jesus to surrender
to the authorities, or for Jesus, Himself, to claim divine authority over all?
We may never know these answers. But we do know one thing. We know the words Judas spoke when he found
out that Jesus was going to be crucified.
Listen to Matthew 27:4...
"'I have sinned,' he declared, 'for I have betrayed an innocent Man.'" Matthew 27:4a
Have you ever stopped and listened to the words of Judas? I have
sinned. Judas admitted his mistake.
He confessed his sin. I'm sure he felt terrible for what he'd done because we're
told in verse three that he was filled with remorse. With all the "bad" that
may have been brewing in his heart, was he finally on the road to "good"? He
felt remorse. Admitted he was
wrong. Gave the 30 pieces of silver
back. And then... he stopped right there.
Instead of staying on the path that leads to forgiveness, Judas decided to take
a self-inflicted detour - one that we know led him to a "dead end".
And that=s where my "wondering" came in. As I read the report that Judas took his own
life, I couldn't help wondering what if?
What if he would've considered the possibility of forgiveness? What if, instead of climbing into a tree
for death, he would have knelt at the Tree of Life? What if Judas would have not only confessed his sins, but also
asked to be forgiven for them? What an amazing testimony his could have been.
His story would've beat them all.
Yes, King David had committed adultery and murder - and had been
forgiven. And the Apostle Paul had once killed innocent Christians - and had
been forgiven. And Peter... mere hours after pledging allegiance to the death, he
denied even knowing Jesus - and had been forgiven. But Judas would've had the best story of all.
He deliberately betrayed the Son of God. After years of
intimate friendship, he, himself, initiated the deception, and then set the
price for his trouble. He even shamelessly walked right up to Jesus, called Him
by His respected title, greeted Him with the kiss of a friend, and then counted
his change while Jesus was arrested. His
listeners would have been spellbound. Judas could have relived all of his
sinful past, and then with tears in his eyes whispered, "And even then, I've been forgiven." The impact that would have had on
countless people - from hardened criminals, to people we see every day who have
secretly betrayed Jesus in their hearts.
Just imagine the ripple effect.
The only thing blocking this miraculous testimony was one word.
Forgiveness. Judas never asked for it.
Makes me wonder about us.
When reflecting on your life, do you see the sins of your past covered
with God's stamp of forgiveness? Or do
they haunt you, a daily reminder of how low you can go? What if
you gave to God your mess? What if, in return, He gave to you a
fresh start? What if, in addition to a fresh start, He promises to be with you
every step of the way?
No need to wonder what if? If you listen closely, you'll hear Him whispering.
Jesus is saying to
you, "You can".
